Too far from where I thought I would be

I came into realization a little too late, I have let things get by so easily and until now i realize that I could be in a better place physically and even mentally. I try to think I'm happy but honestly I don't know. I have career plans and I want to do so many things, but so far I have accomplish almost nothing. I'm behind on school, things did not turn up like I thought they were. Now I find myself nowhere I don't know what to do or how to get back on track. I feel like I fail in some ways my friends are graduating and getting their bachelors this semester and I am behind that it is embarrassing to recognize. I didn't waste time living my crazy life, my family needed me and I felt like I had to be there for them. I always thought about what was convenient to my family and then I thought about me and school. Now that I want to get back on track I do not know how to take all the responsibilities, or stop feeling so responsible and concentrate on what matters to me. Unfortunately what I have come across this last years after I graduated, is that I care so much for my family that I sacrificed a lot of important things for them but now that I want to take back my dreams and goals, I have no support or interest from my family, it feels like I'm alone on this. I just hope that things get better for me, one way or the other.

Lately....

For the passed few days I have been thinking and thinking and thinking of all the opportunities I let by. There is no use of regretting what once could have been a possible path of my life or maybe just a detour to the life I'm living now. Whatever it was and if life was going to take me another way or another place different than now, I can only wonder and think if it would have been better or worst. I live with the doubt of what it would have been for me to make other choices, not that the ones i made are bad bur better ones, wiser ones. I tell my friends all the time to not be afraid of taking a risk, or step out of the same old thing. I have decided that i won't live life wondering what something is like, I rather take a risk, go out of the routine and try something different. I sit on the chair and feel frustrated something I feel like i failed in so many ways to myself my family and friends, I still have a lot to live and learn but being home alone proves me that perhaps some of the choices I made could have been better. So go ahead, go out , meet people, love life and live it, there's nothing better than being young!

I have always asked myself why is it that guys cannot understand us. Either they are not actually paying attention to what we are saying, or they got a problem or we are the problem?

For the past couple of years i have tried analyzing the guys I know, how they act around a girl things they say to impress a girl, the things they do just when I'm around compared to things they do when someone else, or any cute girl is around. I found that the biggest mistake they make is underestimating their girl friend. The fact that I'm and maybe be not loving it, doesn't mean I cannot give my guy friend significant advice! My friend acts like he doesn't need any help, he knows what he is doing and won't accept anything i say even if it's true: one he doesn't trust my judgment or too he probably things i need help too! Guys number one problem is paying attention to details and trying to understand things that sometimes just are.

Whatever it is, for guys to understand why girls, go in groups to the restroom, or take long to leave the house, or sing like crazy in the car, look and your friend first, it's where most of your questions will be answered. We act our most natural with friends that we are used to hang out with, and we usually don't care unless the by we like is around!

P.S. Girls go to restrooms in groups, because we want too! simple as that!